Stephen and Matt chatted extensively about video games, during which I interjected every so often.  And because they were very engrossed in chatting, we almost missed getting off the right El stop. If I hadn’t looked out the window when the train had stopped, and then yelled, we would have missed it. No big deal, but it was pretty hilarious because we just up and dashed out mad fast.  Then Stephen went to get his hair cut and Matt and I browsed many bakeries, none of which would take credit cards, and in each one, I bought the pretty much the same stuff.  Still yummy though.  I’ll eat some tomorrow.

After Stephen got his haircut, we went to eat.  It was a very Asian feel.  And because my memory is a piece of crap, I totally can’t remember what we talked about.  Lots of Asian stuff.  The way we hold chopsticks. Parents. Etc. I laughed a lot. Then we went and bought boba tea, which was a bad idea on my part, because I ended up drinking it all on the El and had to go to the bathroom really badly.  So we left the station and walked around til we found a Dominick’s and I went there.  Oh. Matt ordered a boba tea with double the boba, and he couldn’t finish the boba at the same time at the tea.  Boba tea nightmares xDDD

At any rate. Loads of fun stuff happened. I felt very Asian today.  My friends are awesome ))))

Not important enough or drastic enough to warrant all caps though.

I was thinking that I should post here because I don’t very often, as I always mention.

I think I’ve written about this before? In some form? Well, I get tired around people easily. Especially groups of people, whether or not I know them. As long as I need to interact with them somehow, I get tired. So if I went to a family gathering, or a party of some sort or whatever, by the end of the day, I’ll be yawning before it’s even 10 pm. Which is surprising, because even at 3 in the morning when I should be sleeping, I might not yawn. That’s why I don’t go to college parties. I don’t drink, and there’s no dancing or anything, so it’s boring. No point in getting tired if I’m not even gonna have fun.

Um…the end?

Oh, well, school starts in two weeks. I go back next week. On one hand, I’m glad to start school again and I’m excited for my classes. On the other hand, there’s this scheduling thing and future planning stuff I need to figure out that’s pretty stressful…and of course, I’m leaving my family, which is a good and bad thing as well. I’m tired of the restaurant now, and I could use a break. Bad thing is that I’m leaving my family. Slightly homesick? Yeah, I guess so. But I tend to get homesick before I even leave, often. It’s not a problem when I’m there, but the thought of leaving is kinda not so nice.

Okay. Now that I’ve filled this with something substantial, I’ll go.

I was thinking this sounds like a pretty insubstantial entry, that I posted because I felt guilty for posting so rarely and for always looking at Allee’s blog which is usually updated pretty regularly. At any rate, I talked about Flatland right? For like, two seconds or one second worth of reading through when reading this entry, but in extension, I’m doing the summer reading program at the local library. Ever since I got a library card, which was in like…sometime in the middle of elementary school when the existence of public libraries became cemented in my mind. (not that I hadn’t gone to the library before – I’d been to the libraries downtown a few times in my early memories of before I moved houses, but it’s just that I’d never had a library card until that moment sometime in elementary school.) Faithfully, I have participated every year in the program. Recent years, probably about ever since I entered high school or so? I haven’t been reading for leisure as much as I’d have liked to, especially since I like reading so much. Or maybe it’s just that I feel like I haven’t been reading as much? No, scratch that thought. I definitely have not been reading as much. But this summer, it’s like I reunited with a long lost and loved childhood teddy bear or friend or something of that sort. I feel like I’ve finally stepped back on the path that I strayed off of years ago in the search for…I don’t know? Well, I guess it’s just that I’ve been focusing on reading stuff from that AP list for so long that I’ve kind of lost interest in reading, because as enlightening and theme filled as those books are, some, if not many, of them can been pretty dry for just leisure reading. However, since I no longer have that pressure of reading stuff from that list, I’m not really limited to it. Such a nice feeling. Not that I won’t read stuff that’s on that list. I happen to have bought a number of books that I have yet to read that are on that list. It’s just that I no longer feel obligated to analyze everything I’m reading, so it’s easier to read. I’m repeating myself, and my computer is lagging for some reason so it pauses a little when I need to backspace and it’s just slightly annoying, so I’m going to stop writing now. The end for today.

Oh, and yeah I know the picture doesn’t really match, but I’m sluggish with uploading pictures of stuff or looking for summery wallpapers.

The real end.

Registration for classes start next week. Recently, I’ve been thinking of computer science and wondering how well that would go. I’m pretty excited to take a comp sci class come fall, so hopefully I’ll like it. Or, to put it another way, I will put as much effort as I can to liking it.

I’m never really sure what I should write whenever I get on here. Usually, it’s just whatever thoughts happen to pop into my mind, but recently, or not so much, I guess, I’ve noticed that whenever I write stuff down it’s always oriented towards school stuff. It’s not as if school’s always on my mind, it just happens to appear that way, I guess.  I’m not an unfeeling person, but I don’t feel dynamically, I suppose I can say? I’m not particularly prone to waves of emotion or feeling super strongly. But then again, I haven’t had many experiences that have elicited strong shows of emotion. Not that that’s a bad thing either, it could go both ways. I’d rather it not go the negative way, to be honest.

Oh but I’m really grateful to my friends who are willing to put up or understand or don’t understand but don’t mind my semi-anti-social tendencies. I’m not particularly an outside person, although I do like being outside and doing stuff outside to an extent, but in the past few years or so I guess, since I haven’ t really had much opportunity to just go and do things for the heck of them because I haven’t had time, my loner tendencies have increased more. I’ve always been kind of a by myself kind of person, even in elementary school. So it’s not necessary that I like to do things alone, but sometimes I prefer to, or sometimes I just prefer not to do anything at all. So when my friends ask me if I want to do something, I feel bad if I reject them. Oh but if I do end up going along, even reluctantly, when we get around to doing whatever we’re going to do, I will try to enjoy myself. I’m not a masochist, by any means. At least, I don’t think so.

I don’t particularly like sitting indoors all the time unless I”m doing something productive, so when I catch myself not doing anything productive, I feel kinda bad, because I should go do something. Not necessarily work, but at least my body around some more instead of sitting a chair all day. Wouldn’t want to increase my chances at getting a heart attack, after all. Not that I necessarily like exercising. I don’t hate it either. Well, the best way to describe it would be to say that I don’t want to do it until I’m already sweaty, because then it doesn’t matter anymore. I just don’t like the process of having to get to that state.

Well, I feel like I’ve sufficiently emptied my head for now of all the random things that I had to say. And I can say I updated too.

I like my classes this quarter more than the ones I had last quarter, which is good.  I’m pretty sure I have more reading this quarter, which is a bummer, and I’m on the verge of not being able to handle it, but I think I’ll be fine.  It certainly, by far, beats having to take Chinese Painting again.  Yeesh.

Did I mention it?  I’m pretty sure I did, that I was thinking about engineering next year.  I don’t even know what to do with my life anymore.  What do I want to do?  No clue.  Sigh.  I mean, I guess this is one way to get it dually done?  Since I’ve never really had much of a specialization in terms of coursework, this can be the way of doing two for one once more? Eh. I went to a seminar sort of thing the other day. It was basically about career paths and whatnot. The ladies there were like, it’s okay if you don’t know what you want to do now, it’s okay if you don’t know what you want to do when you graduate, because eventually you’ll be able to find the one thing that you fit into, and you’ll love doing it.  That’s reassuring advice, but I’m kinda twitchy in the way that while I don’t necessarily want to have it completely planned out, I’d still like to have a vague path mapped out so that I don’t end up taking pointless classes in college.  This place does cost thousands of dollars a year, after all.  Despite my woes, though, I think I might try out the engineering path to see how it works out.  I may not like doing labs, but designing things doesn’t sound too bad, depending.

I also went to the gym yesterday. I often blog about going to the gym, because I don’t often go. It ended up being not the best experience, but that was partially my fault. I don’t know my limits because I don’t go often enough to figure them out, so I died when I came back, pretty much.  I’m trying to squeeze more hours in. Eh.

Whenever Allee blogs, it’s usually about some specific topic, but I just say whatever comes to my head. I mean, I could talk about what I consider the miracle of reciprocated attraction, but that would take a long time and I really ought to go do some more reading now. So I’ll leave that for the future.

Spaters.

Not just here, but I just barely wrote in my journal yesterday after a month hiatus.  There’s really no reason for it, but it just happened.  Whatever.

Um, well, I’m getting back into the swing of things, I suppose.  Five classes this quarter makes things slightly more difficult, but it’s still manageable.  I like the classes and all that.

Problem number one is that my desk lamp short circuited, so it’s not working anymore, which leads to Problem number two being the fact that my room doesn’t have the best lighting, especially since my desk is under my bed and thus the bed covers the light attached to the ceiling so that I’m always sunk in perpetual gloom. Awesome.  So even though I bought a new light bulb, nothing can’t really save my lamp. Time to buy a new one, unfortunately for my frugal little soul.

Now Problem number three has to do with the gloomy weather.  I’m not affected by SAD any more than a typical person who is not affected by SAD, but gloomy weather means no sunshine, which means no light, and coupled with the lack of light in my own room makes me not want to work more than usual.  I could lug all my stuff to a lounge room or something with better lighting, but of course I’m too lazy. I’ll work on it.

The end.